okay so i found this other guy, his name is caleb. and hes really heffing hot. i'm not sure what will happen with us but i have a feeling its good. and his mom works at our school. and both of his parents seem to like me. they went bowling last night and they wanted me to come, i went after work and it was fun.

yesterday i did community service at monte vista elementary. it was pretty boring until i was dealing directly with the kids. i think i got sunburned too, and the food wasnt that great either.

and i ran into three people i have seen in years yesterday. it was cool. so i think its safe to say that life is going good.

lol

(i hope i havent spoken too soon)(dont want to jinx myself)

xoxo

Currently Listening Dark Light By H.I.M. see related

- In the nightside of eden

ok

so things with the boys are not good

me and johnathon are no bueno, me and jake just want to use eachother and think this guy named pual might be interested but hes way older. but school is good. passing all of my classes (woot woot) finally, it is senior year. so i cant fuck up anymore.

isnt it funny how when your looking for a relationship it wont want to come but then you just told yourself you wanna have fun and then you find  a guy that is amazing, but your still in fun single mode and you guys fuck things up. i hate that...

you want to know what i love... the new HIM CD. it way better than the other ones i have. i dont have the greatest love songs vol 666 or love metal but i plan on getting them. i got a heartagram tattoo on my back... its henna but its still rad. my dad flipped out. then he realized it was fake and was okay with it. but still mad i didnt tell him

yea

so whats new

comments please!!

xoxo

my hair is purple!!!!

it looks so rad

me and jake bought homecomming tickets today after school and tomorrow after school me and natasha are going to get our nails done!! so excited. i'm so hyped up for homecomming... i mean this the first and last one i'm going to!

i'm gonna look hot

pictures to come... stay tuned friends

xoxo

Currently Listening Retaliation By Dane Cook see related

okay

so i'm going to homecomming with this guy named jake. hes a sweetheart. and tomorrow i'm going to go shopping for a dress, i'm so happy. this is my first and last homecomming. i wasnt able to go for the past 3 years. and on thurday i'm dying my hair this purple-ish color. and then on friday i'm getting my nails done with natasha. its gonna be fun.

Dads birthday is tomorrow. hes so old. hes turning 50! Dee was showing me what she made for him. its a collouge of all the pictures of his family way back in the day. she showed me one of his mother and she looks just like my little sister nicole. exactly!! its really weird to look at it. and there are more of him as a child and my little brothers head is just as big as Dad's was. and my dad in high school and there was one of grandpa carl and he was a stud in his prime, and you can find him sitting in the corner plaing with his teeth... i dont know what happened.

Me and Dee were talking and found out that dads mom died when he was ten, that struck me hard. my mother died two days before i turned ten. i was listening to her tell the story and i started to cry. it was like i connected with dad and he wasnt even there. and then we started to talk about our family and she could tell me all her stories in like twenty minutes. it took me and hour and i wasnt even done. we heard dad comming downstairs and we were still making the present. so i didnt get to finish. but we definately bonded it was great.

i wanted to go find my sister and get some picture of my relatives or hunt down the pictures my aunt connie has, i just wanted sooo bad to bust out all these pictures i dont have. and then i was thinking that i dont want to leave my children with no picture of their family. i just felt so sad cuz i havent seen anybody in so long. 

we cleaned out the attic over the weekend, our new neighbors from deleware helped us out. they were looking at all these frames and they came accross this one and then patrick asked me if i had ever taken a picture of me in a white dress. i was like yea when i was really little. and the he handed me this big frame of nothing but me and my older brother and sister. i saw it and i started crying. i miss them so much and there was one of me and my grandpa in the snow and my first "snowman" i miss him too. we were so little in that picture and we were all at my grandpas old house and i was flooded with so many memories and i was overwhelmed. patrick and david just stared at me when i was crying. but they were like tina are you okay and then i was like i'll be fine, i'm so happy you showed me this. I WANT PICTURES GOD DAMNIT!

yea so comment me cuz this is long one its meaningful

xoxo